I am feeling a lot of sadness today, mixed with a bit of excitement, mostly for the future. Today was my last “official” day babysitting for my dear boys, Andrew and Patty. I have loved them for two years and am now moving on. It was always my goal to move away from babysitting and become a “full time” photographer, and eventually a mother. But even as I embark on a bright and busy future, I can’t help but feel a sense of sadness.
I went through some snapshots that were taken throughout the last two years, and although I would love to share them all - I thought I would throw in just a few. Oh how they have grown.
the "train" - really hard to push through the house - but they LOVED it.
always sucking that thumb...
what a smile...
I won't even tell you how many train tracks I built with Andrew - I still haven't mastered it.
he loved to wear this hat - it was his "thing" for a week or so...
the peanut butter mustache.
I never had so much fun running through the sprinklers.
brothers hug.
for a while we were obsessed with painting - he is quite the picasso.
I will miss Patty’s smile – the way he loves to say my name, Pammy - and now Pamella. I will miss the way Andrew always asks me, after everything he says, “was that funny pam?” “was that funny pam?” I will miss listening to Andrew and his little friend Julia talk about who they will marry and how many children they plan to have together. I will miss Patty following me around, laughing, just to laugh, and copying EVERYTHING his brother does. I will most certainly miss Patty greeting me at the door when I arrive, with a gleaming smile and pure and honest happiness that I am there. I will miss playing legos, trains, drawing endless amounts of cars for Andrew to color. I will miss making peanut butter and honey sandwiches, every day. I will miss everything. I will miss Mary Coyles. I will miss listening to them chatter when they are supposed to be sleeping – and I will even miss hearing Andrew’s little footsteps, sneaking out of bed. I will miss swinging in the hammock with them, playing eye spy… dance parties! How could I miss dance parties.. I will miss everything - I already do.
Soon I will have my own children to write about – and until that day comes, I will continue to surround myself with children – and, of course, to visit this beautiful family, whom I have spent the last two years with, as often as they will let me. I hope that they will be a part of my life until, well… forever. How do I thank them for inviting me into their lives so graciously? For sharing such beautiful moments with me – such gorgeous children. It is a blessing just to know them. Thank you.
I will leave you with a few shots from our most recent shoot. Brace yourself, they are gorgeous creatures…





please excuse me while I wipe away my tears...